Struggles

Life
Oh my....
Lord
Help me
I am in the edge...
If i jump down....will i die
I am so tired
Life love family
ALL GONE
Who i left with
NADA
Nothing
Death....sound good to me
But no......i cant
Cuz...idk why
I have no control of my life...
I want to make the decision
Do you understand??
I want to cry .
I want to die
I want to be happy
I want to live the way i hope it is
I want.....
I want many things
But you take that away from me
I love you
Love you so much that i let u choose for me
Doesnt mean u can decide.....
.......on my future
I hate being a doc
I want to be a stylest
Be sonething connected to clothes
No connected to Death
When will you realize i am not happy
When?????
Please tell me....im waiting for that day to come
Come fast
I cant take it anymore ..
One day
You will lose me for good
I will run to Europe
Start my fashion career
Lose all conncection with you
Live the way i want.....
One day....
I will run away from you
Even though i love you
Sorry...it is my life
Not yours
I still love you deeply.....
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